It shouldn't be really...basically my own existing health issues don't get impacted by this. I had good days and bad days six weeks ago, it happens now. But the thing is then I could think "well this is shit, but I'm doing xyz in the next few days/weeks, I'm seeing so and so, it'll all be worth it". There isn't any of that now so I was just musing on how futile things seem at the moment.
As I say, existing for the sake of it - it gets very much magnified for me as I'm on my own, no-one depends on me, I'm not actually doing anything at the moment work-wise so I'm just here and nothing else. It's like our crappy midfields of the 1990s - there's a body in the shirt and they're filling space on the pitch at any given moment, but they aren't contributing anything to the piece, they have zero value.
If you have weeks or even months of this, and the only battle really is whether you can keep your fridge moderately stocked, and there's nothing at all on the horizon bar more of the same...I think a lot more people will start to question it too. Not just the likes of me who 30%+ of the time don't even enjoy life when everything is normal.
This has been preying on my mind the last couple of nights. Having suffered with long term mental health issues, and now having to learn to deal with the late on-set of epilepsy at just the right moment in time and hey, why not throw insomnia into the mix and I can empathise with any struggles
you're currently enduring.
You've got a large network of friends on here, I think it's true to say youre one of the most loved posters on the site and I'm sure that they will do everything they can to support you in any way they can.
From a purely selfish point of view, I'd be happy for you to spend the entire lockdown sharing any, and all of your thoughts on the club I love that.
No one quite manages to encapsulate what it means to be a Wolves fan quite like you can. Not only do you have an encyclopedic knowledge of all things Wolves that doesnt require the use of Google, you have the rare ability to express the full gamut of football fan emotions in a way that we can all relate to that is entertaining, informative, concise, rich and detailed and that frequently puts fully paid up professional journalists to shame.
I've rarely, if ever read you get anything wrong. It's not a case of always agreeing with everything you've ever put down, if everyone automatically shared the same opinions the world would be a very boring place, it's more that whilst sometimes it may take time,
your opinions consistently turn out to be the most well thought out, the most accurate and the most justified.
Counter productively, I'd give my right arm to be able to write the way you're capable of.
On a less selfish note and given your ability to accurately predict Wolves outcomes with signings, results and managers a well as a host of other subjects, have you ever applied to join this project?
https://www.gjopen.com/
"Good Judgment Open is owned and operated by Good Judgment, a forecasting services firm that equips corporate and government decision makers with the benefit of foresight.
Good Judgments co-founder, Philip Tetlock, literally wrote the book on state-of-the-art crowd-sourced forecasting."
It was started after but not necessarily because the military intelligence community got the call on Iraqi WMD's so badly wrong. People do it more or less for fun, my understanding of the original project was that you commit to x ammount of time a month to read up on certain subjects and then predict the likelihood of future outcomes, such as
https://www.gjopen.com/questions/1542-how-many-fatalities-caused-by-the-wuhan-coronavirus-covid-19-will-the-world-health-organization-who-report-as-of-1-june-2020 Even if you don't decide to volunteer, I think the site makes an interesting read.
Good luck with it if you do get involved, and if not, never forget the pleasure that your unique way of
expressing your thinking on Wolves gives to hundreds, if not thousands of other Wolverhampton Wanderers fans. It's something I don't think I've ever said thankyou for. Shouldn't really take a global pandemic to get round to saying something as simple as Thanks to someone you take for granted, but I suspect I'm not alone in finding myself trying to address that with a few people at the moment.