For the non-subscribers can you give us the gist of what it says?
“Sometimes people forget the age I am because I started early,” he says. “I had to improve too quickly at Wolves. People expected one thing and sometimes forgot my age because of the price. When people come from other places or to take pictures they say, ‘I’ve seen you for many years, you must be 25 or 26 now’, but I have to say, ‘No, I’m only 22’.”
“Everything around me in my life was too quick,” Silva reflects. “The idea was to stay two or three years at Porto and play some games. But in football I didn’t control some things and, in that moment, I couldn’t do anything.”
“It was very difficult because playing in a team like Wolves you don’t have the ball all the time, so you have to suffer and play counter attacks. Some times the centre-backs and midfielders would play the ball to me to hold it up, but I was not so strong. I was up against players like Kurt Zouma and Thiago Silva (when Wolves played Chelsea) who were big and strong. I was thinking, ‘Wow, this is a big level’. I was putting too much pressure, but I had to manage that in my head.”
“I came at 18 to the best league in the world and with all the noise around me. I feel like I didn’t have time and space to make mistakes. Everything had to be perfect. I think I’m different because of that, so I have to live with it. But I like to live with that pressure.”
“The year I spent with Nuno was really good,” says Silva. “He was the coach who empowered me and, from the first day, he was very honest with me. He said I had to wait for my opportunity and to trust him that it was going to come. He always gave me the words to keep me happy.
“Sometimes, when I didn’t play, he came and spoke to me. I give him a lot of credit as he knew I was young and away from my family in a different country. He always had that love for me so he was a special coach for me and I am happy to see him doing well (at Nottingham Forest). He is a very good person.”
“When you go through those moments you have to try to find something to turn around the situation. I was not so strong so I had to see what I could change to be better. If you are not good mentally your body is not going to be good on the pitch, so I started doing some things with a mental coach and working with a nutritionist and personal trainer.”
“You can stay in a bad moment or you can look at it in a new way and say, ‘OK, I am not blaming things for not going the way I want. I’m going to look at myself and change the situation’. Sometimes it is important to be alone and find ways to change the situation.”
“Now I am more of a man and more mature.”
“Over the last few years I don’t put that pressure on myself,” he adds. “I like to appreciate the small things and enjoy the small things day by day.
“I have to live in the present. The noise around me before… I don’t read nothing now. I know what I can bring to my team.”