The Mental Health thread

[Keef]

Will do,although I'll leave the last paragraph to someone who knows you better,otherwise you'll think I'm on the pull

 

[lemonjelly]

Had to give myself a metaphorical slap round the face tonight as my anxiety was taking over and making me totally irrational.

recognising that is always the first step. still a journey after, but it is the beginning.

Will do,although I'll leave the last paragraph to someone who knows you better,otherwise you'll think I'm on the pull

:icon_lol:

 

[The Bear]

Bloody hell, I thought Deutsch had a new job for a minute!

https://amp.theguardian.com/co...rsal-credit-lockdown-claimants

 

[Deutsch Wolf]

I've gone a bit today. I don't really have anything, do I? It's been a month and not a single soul has struggled without seeing me. My family are fine without me. I don't have anyone here. I don't even have a proper job. I can't go anywhere or do anything.

This isn't "tell Dan he's great" time because I don't need that. I'm just of zero value and there's really no point in me even being here. It hurts to tell myself that, but it's true.

 

[Jabbawolf]

I've gone a bit today. I don't really have anything, do I? It's been a month and not a single soul has struggled without seeing me. My family are fine without me. I don't have anyone here. I don't even have a proper job. I can't go anywhere or do anything.

This isn't "tell Dan he's great" time because I don't need that. I'm just of zero value and there's really no point in me even being here. It hurts to tell myself that, but it's true.

Many of us are lacking our sense of purpose right now, both work-wise and socially - this is bound to impact on MH - hang on in there - it will bounce back when we move out of lockdown.

 

[Tredman]

I've gone a bit today. I don't really have anything, do I? It's been a month and not a single soul has struggled without seeing me. My family are fine without me. I don't have anyone here. I don't even have a proper job. I can't go anywhere or do anything.

This isn't "tell Dan he's great" time because I don't need that. I'm just of zero value and there's really no point in me even being here. It hurts to tell myself that, but it's true.

I don’t think there’s any easy answer to feeling more worthwhile, it’s certainly been on my mind for a while.

I would say your postings on here, twitter and on your blog do bring enjoyment to people. That is very much valued.

 

[lemonjelly]

I try to find value in myself, for myself. Our feelings of self worth usually are very different to how others value us. It takes work to remind ourselves of our strengths and/or contributions.
Equally, with the isolation, it is very easy to slip into circular thinking that isn't conducive to wellbeing, as there is no-one to challenge me when I engage in confirmation bias in this way.

 

[PPB]

Lived in America for 19 years, I went years without seeing certain family members, I think this is helping me through all of this. I know that one day I will see them all again. I know they are fine without me, they always have been.

What's upsetting is that we have a Grandson now,a couple of weeks old. We have no idea when we will be able to get to hold him for the first time.

Most days I'm ok, I just get on with jobs, looking after mom, busying myself, but there are the odd days that I'm not doing so good.

DW, keep your pecker up. You offered me your help and ear not so long ago, mines there for you too, if ever you want a natter.

 

[Deutsch Wolf]

https://oscillatingwildly.net/four-years-and-counting/

 

[YoungWolf]

Thanks for sharing Dan. I love reading your work, so when you feel up to writing more I can't wait to read it.

 

[Deutsch Wolf]

Cheers man. I know I've let a lot of people down with not doing anything but it's all for a good reason. I want to try next week if I can. It's only a wee 500 words or so that one but it felt good to be back in the game.

 

[Tony Towner]

You've not let anyone down Dan. You put out free content people are grateful for whatever you do

 

[Tredman]

Good read that Dan; no need to feel pushed to put anything out - whatever you do write is enjoyable in itself, whenever it’s written.

Little bit sceptical over this 30 yarder though..

 

[Deutsch Wolf]

It's been a downward spiral really, split up with my girlfriend around this time last year, I get anxiety issues about getting old and being on my own, it's continued from there. I've just totally lost the plot a couple of times, including the Liverpool home game when I just had to leave the pub as I couldn't deal with people, Kenny being the ledge that he is looked after me. And I love the pub and seeing people, it wasn't a slight on anyone at all. It was me.

Waking up every morning and thinking "nah, you can't do this, you're shit" is no fun. I'm battling that at the moment. It's no-one else's problem but mine, I can't ask anyone to help me there because there's nothing you can do.

I'm trying though.

 

[Deutsch Wolf]

Good read that Dan; no need to fell pushed to put anything out - whatever you do write is enjoyable in itself, whenever it’s written.

Little bit sceptical over this 30 yarder though..

I've got witnesses man.

Might have been more than 30 yards.

 

[Freddeno]

Great read Dan, know a bit how you feel..been down the drain for a few years but now looking forward again..life aint easy, especially if you think too much..just try to live in the now if possible, you cant change the world yourself.. cheers, keep it up with the writing

 

[sycophantia]

Looking forward to the next instalment........the football bit I mean not you struggling, hopefully you'll get get a handle on that sometime soon

 

[Deutsch Wolf]

Ach mate, it's been going on for the best part of 25 years now. It's just something that's there, always.

It's frightening when it gets really bad but that's the same with any illness. If this were the 90s (when I first started suffering from it, without realising it) it'd be all "what's wrong with you, you look relatively nice, you have loads of friends, you're good at what you do, get on with it". But thankfully things have moved on.

I genuinely wanted to kill myself a month ago, went as far as walking on the tracks at Bilbrook then bottled it. We're further on from there.

Because it's bipolar you get highs but you get massive lows too. There ain't a great deal I can do about it. I know I'm not the easiest person to deal with.

 

[Jabbawolf]

Know how you feel - 2 years ago, and I was lying on the kitchen floor with the meat knife, wishing I had the ‘courage’ to impale myself on it - day by day, and thought by thought, since then I have tried to let go of the negative, and embrace the positive - it takes time - you can get there - you write like so many of us wish we could - hang on in there.

 

[Freddeno]

Ach mate, it's been going on for the best part of 25 years now. It's just something that's there, always.

It's frightening when it gets really bad but that's the same with any illness. If this were the 90s (when I first started suffering from it, without realising it) it'd be all "what's wrong with you, you look relatively nice, you have loads of friends, you're good at what you do, get on with it". But thankfully things have moved on.

I genuinely wanted to kill myself a month ago, went as far as walking on the tracks at Bilbrook then bottled it. We're further on from there.

Because it's bipolar you get highs but you get massive lows too. There ain't a great deal I can do about it. I know I'm not the easiest person to deal with.

Shit, that sounds horrible..have you tried taking tryptophan?