I'd just like to thank those on here that read, responded and gave me confidence to seek help a while back.
Without going into things to much, with my health conditions and covid, I'd resigned myself to dying and basically given up, despite treatments I hadn't moved on and still lived day to day thinking it may be my last.
Things are improving and I can start to see a future, im actually making long term plans and starting to enjoy life again.
Thanks again, great thread and superb advice.